Hollow Heart [poem]

You always say you love me, but you don't really tell me
But some feelings, are heard to believe
When it's kept inside a hollow heart
I want to cry, but there are no more tears, only hurt

I want to make you happy, but I can't tell if you want the same
You tell me you do, but you don't really let it show
If I have to point it out myself, I don't want to play this game
Well I guess you really did win, how much further will you let this go?

All this time we've spent talking, hoping, wishing
Was it all just a fantasy, and nothing more, that you thrived on?
I wish it was my bleeding heart you were seeing
Maybe then you could see my pain, that it will never truly be gone

It all seems to have blurred in together
My heart feels broken into tiny pieces
I thought our happiness would last just forever
Despite all these dances, I took all I could, all these chances

To be with you, because with you I was for once, happy
You taught me happiness was real, but now I only see it as a veil
That covers up the truth, I wanted to see so badly
I only loved you blindly, and let myself get lost on the trail

Even if you say you'll try, all I can do is want to cry
It's you falling away that will tear us apart
If only from the beginning, I'd seen your hollow heart
All the shallow remarks, these feelings I now despise

I might say, I've accepted being alone
At the end of the day, all I want is someone to tell me "I love you," too
But it's everything but that, you've said and shown
I've prayed desperately for a sign, but I just don't know what to do

Of course it was stupid, of course I ended up hurt
I guess it's what I deserve, for trusting again
If I was more alert, maybe my feelings, I wouldn't have to exert
All my hopes and dreams now drained, who could have imagined you would cause all this pain

End