Tired [Poem]

I'm so tired when people pretend everything is okay
But I can tell just be reading your words
I can see you changing day by day
You say you're just tired, but your words cut like sharp swords

The words which you think cover up the secret
It's not so much a secret anymore
It never really was, just let me know if you're done yet
I'm tired of crying till my eyes are sore, you now have the high score

I wish if you didn't want me, you'd just say so
Please, if you're just humoring just fucking stop
How much longer will this drag out, how much farther will you go?
I wish you were here with me, I scream and shout till I drop

I'm tired of these lame games
I wish you'd just be real with me
I wish I could just be rid of all these pains
But no matter what, your words just always sting

To you they might be making everything okay
But even in hindsight, you should know, they're not
How I wish you could stay, but I know, there's no way
Because you were never here to begin with, please just make it stop

Why don't you just tell me what's really on your mind
If it's the truth you're afraid of hurting me
I can't possibly hurt anymore, don't worry
Your honesty and truth, I only wish I could find

I'm sick and tired of always being angry
You may not realize, but each day is a roller-coaster
It brings me up and down in misery
If this is going downhill, I wish it would go faster

I just wish all this pain would stop it
If it's really not real, then you can forget it
Because if it turns out you've been lying this whole time
Well I guess after it's over, I'll be just fine

End